I’m safe.
Where I am going he cannot find me.
He cannot hurt me anymore.
I’m safe.
Breathe.
Inhale.
Exhale.
I know I’m safe.
But will he find me?
Things are so weird now.
I know I can’t go back.
But I miss him.
I miss him?
Am I crazy?
I miss who he was in the beginning.
Was that really him?
What did I do wrong?
What did I do to make him hate me so much?
Why did he do all those things to me?
Was I not good enough?
Was I not pretty enough?
Not smart enough?
I gave everything up for him.
I did any and everything to make him happy.
Who would ever want to be with someone like me?
I’ll never love anyone again
I’ll never be loved by anyone again
I’m damaged goods
He was right…
No one would want me
No one would love me
I’ll never be anything
I’m nothing
I’m nothing without him
I have to move on
I can’t keep living like this
I can’t keep going on like this
I have to get my life back
One step at a time
One day at a time
Whatever it may take
I’m getting my life back
I will have good days
And some bad days
But each day is a step closer
A step closer to gaining back my identity
I may not be who I once was before
But I know I will be better than I was
It is going to take a lot of work
But I know I can make it
If I could make it out of that
I can make it through anything
When the negative things he used to say play in my mind
I will reverse them into the positive things I know I am.
He said I was ugly.
But look at me.
I’m beautiful.
He said that I was weak.
But I am stronger than I have ever been.
He said I was nothing without him.
But I am more than he could have ever handled.
I am who I am
Because of all that I went through
When you thought you could break me
I actually broke free
I busted out of that cage
Out of that cocoon
And I learned how to fly